I stopped watching my watch
Many moons ago there was an advertisement on television of Michelle Herbelin wristwatches. My heart yearned in adoration. I seldom desired things. I desired that watch. When my mother went to heaven, I inherited a small sum of money. I used it to buy myself a Michelle Herbelin watch as an ode to my mother who invested time in raising me.
In lockdown I have taken my precious watch off and put it away in a cupboard. My focus on the hours of the day has changed. I used to measure my effectivity in making appointments and keeping them. I took pride in planning my diary weeks ahead. Now that the world has stopped, my watch has lost its meaning to measure. I get a sense of what they mean with African time being circular. Tomorrow, this time, it will be the same time again, so what do you mean that I am late? I just do not operate by the cycle of your watch. I stopped watching my watch. Might this be the time to watch my values, my ethics and my behaviour?
In the story of Hezekiah, he requested that, as a sign of his healing, God would make the sundial move ten degrees back in time. 2 Kings 20:11 “So Isaiah the prophet cried out to the Lord and He brought the shadow ten degrees backward, by which it had gone down on the sundial of Ahaz.” If you could turn time back, what would you like to erase?
When the time on your wristwatch does not measure your productivity, how do you measure the contribution you make? What really matters?
Today I will watch my words.
I will watch my attitude
I will watch the tone of my voice
I will watch myself develop patience
I will watch the amount of loving behaviour I show towards others
I will watch how I can grow in kindness and generosity
I will watch the guidance of the Holy Spirit and follow it in obedience
I will watch Jesus and emulate Him
My time is in God’s hands.
Ecclesiastes 3:1 “To everything there is a season, A time for every purpose under heaven.” On our journey with depression we will Hold Onto Him: our God, who holds the times and seasons of our lives in His hands.
Annette (Joy) de la Porte (author of Hold Onto Him)
The Voicebox : a blog for those who lost their voice during their journey with disease.