MAKING SENSE OF MY GRIEF: Lazarus come forth!

John 11:4 When Jesus heard that Lazarus was sick, He said: “This sickness is not unto death, but for the glory of God, that the Son of God may be glorified through it.” During your life, I often called you back to life, like Jesus called Lazarus from his grave. I proclaimed the words of Jesus in John 11:25 “I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in Me, though he may die, he shall live. :43 “When He had said these things, He cried with a loud voice, “Lazarus, come forth!”

In February, our dear artist friend Ina Ziady gave us a unique painting of an iris flower. She painted it as a prophetic statement about our marriage and our journey with depression. The iris has a purple petal that flows downward and a white petal that stands upright. As she conversed with God about the painting, she asked Him which petal portrays me and which one symbolises Andre. To her amazement, the white petal standing tall was the symbol for Andre and the statement God gave was: “I am raising him up.” This type of iris is also known as the ‘Dream Lover’. It is described as follows: “Noted for its tall stature and sweet fragrance, ‘Dream of you’ is a very impressive bearded iris. Its large flowers are held high on sturdy stems. The lovely sword-shaped foliage will continue to add interest in the landscape after flowering is over. It is easy to grow, deer and rabbit resistant and quite drought tolerant once established.”

Our marriage withstood the droughts of depression even when it seemed to become a desert without an oasis. How often did I not hope and dream that you will be able to bridge the void of disconnection caused by apathy, but it was not to be. Your life and journey will indeed continue to create interest in the landscape of depression and self-death after your flower is gone.

Acts 2:24 in the Message translation: “But God untied the death ropes and raised him up. Death was no match for him.” And so it was that a ceaseless prayer of mine during your life, has now been answered in your death. Now you are standing upright, no more bent under the weight of depression. Your sweet spirit in close communion with your Lord. And Jesus cried with a loud voice, “Andre, come forth!” And so, God is first and foremost, the Lover of your soul.

I will hold onto Him as I encourage others who journey with depression and the threat of self-death. Death has lost its sting. Our victory is in our salvation in Jesus Christ our Lord.

Annette de la Porte (author of Hold onto Him)

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